Dear Diary,

I dunno why I feel so sad.
I think some people are neglecting me
or is it the other way round?

Sometimes I really can't be bothered.

I think i have a gift.
A gift that god gave me.
This is gift is special
cause i can most of the time read people.
Seriously I dunno if its true.
But I'm useless at handling this gift.

I can't read myself.
No one can.

I have come to a realisation that I have not cried in a very long time.
I just feel like crying right now.
No one's shoulder for me to cry on.

No one to hear me.
Silently on the bed sobbing the night away.
Now tears rolling down my cheeks
I feel better but still keeping quiet
cause I don't really understand myself.

Where are you when I'm feeling down?
Nowhere to be found.
I see you there laughing away
with someone else

Its okay really Im fine with it my dear friend.
Im fine.

Why do I feel like people are hiding things from me?
Its okay I don't even want to know.

This is why I feel that sometimes its better not to have friends.
I have heard this somewhere before
"sometimes having a friend is a more a chore"

UUGHH! i dunno what is wrong with me.
God I really need you now.